1st December is always a day of reflection for me, it’s my accident anniversary, 11:08am to be precise. I would not be human if I said I don’t feel forlorn, I do. I feel saddened that I have done so well in my recovery but it’s taken me three years to reach where I am today. It’s going to be a long arduous journey girl, I tell myself. I will probably not know God’s wisdom in this, till I reach my deathbed. I have my ups and I will continue to do so. I recently read a book called Man’s Search for Meaning by Victor Frankl, I don’t think I have ever been hooked on a book, I finished it and the next day I had started it again. I have learned we can look to other humans to see how they managed in the face of adversity. Victor is a Holocaust survivor. Last few weeks I have really changed in my attitude. My physio therapist told me something so beautiful I will carry his words forever. He recently went mountain climbing in the Lake District, he told me when you’re mountain climbing you are always keeping your eye on the peak. However if you just turn around and look how far you have made it and marvel at the beauty down below you will appreciate the journey. It’s beautiful where I am standing today, I might never reach the summit, but to be honest I don’t mind anymore, I want to enjoy my journey that God gave me. I probably would not have choose this route myself, it’s very rocky and tremendously windy. But this is where my belief comes in to play. Islam means peace because when you submit your soul to God, you reach peace. I am not the same Hannah who left her front door that morning three years ago.
I don’t know where I shall be in another three years, but I will always strive on to improve my current situation, no longer with the aim I want to be a normal person. I am just overwhelming grateful for where I am today, and the insight God has given me into life. I want to end by thank my husband for his amazing love and support these three years. Behind this amazing Hannah as people call me is the most amazing man holding me up. Thankyou Mostahfiz Gani , not only do you carry me but our four kids as Well all in the midst of a global pandemic.
Dear Hannah,that is a mind blowing Blog you have written(which your mum my best friend's wife Shamim) forwarded Hannah who says you can't win your challanges You have won He who we call by different names is watching us all AND he is going to give you more strength and courage to meet your Goals Good Luck May Allah,God,Waheguru, Bless you alwaysLove you all,
Uncle Sarjit
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JazakAllah for sharing your profound journey - You have been through an unimaginable test but the strength and positivity of your words are truly marvellous subhanAllah!
The mountain climbing insight is so enlightening as well - it’s true we become so focussed on where we need to get to and become oblivious to the blessings and beauty right there infront of us..
I recently lost my mum ( May Allah forgive her and elevate her) who at the end of her life was wheel chair bound- she was a beautiful soul like you dear sis and taught me what Sabr and Shukr mean in practice.
Your words reminded me of her! Allah uses people like you to become signs for…
God has blessed you 3yrs can't believe it u have done well keep it up. Beautifuly written God bless you n yr family always
MashaAllah so beautifully written Hannah.
Three years subhanallah. I am simply amazed by Allah’s mercy and how He has healed you and how far you have come from that time when I saw you in hospital. We think different things in our limited human minds and Allah shows us His power and miracles time and time again. At that time who could have imagined that you would be where you are today Alhamdulilah and sharing your life lessons and wisdom with us all....These hard years will be amongst the years you will be most proud of on That Day InshaAllah . Keep going, you have so many more chapters of your story to discover. May Allah bless you always Ameen…
So lovely to see your beautiful photo and read your incredible words Hannah Masha Allah. May Allah give you full healing and strength always ameen . Rebecca