One Day I was so happy in telling my daughter ‘ I did a 100 steps today!’ She laughed saying I think the average is 1500. I said ‘ ohh’ and then I had a eureka moment, I will step for Gaza. Watching the news and facebook posts was horrifying me but what can I do I am disabled. I began to think about my own disability and how blessed I was I have no limbs working to the max but I have my family, I have so much equipment to ensure I don’t deteriorate further, i have a beautiful home.
I probably will not recover but seeing the Palestinians I felt who am I to complain , when they lose loved ones , they say ‘ praise belongs to Allah’ when they eat ‘ grass and weeds’ they say ‘ Praise Allah’ after 7 years of struggle and hard times, I found myself saying ‘ Alhamdulilah’ for what I had and for what I still have. I know I will be ungrateful again, this is the nature of man, we always want more, as opposed to being content.
But today I feel absolutely content, 7 years ago when I was in my comma my kids and my husband did not know if I would wake up and if I did, would I even recognise them or remember anything about my past life.
Believe me I am cognitively slow, I am emotionally fragile, I can’t talk and when asked a question I take a moment to register that I am being asked a question, but despite everything, today I have seen two Hannah’s merge together, the old Hannah would cry for Palestine, the new Hannah with this fragile heart cry’s even more, the old Hannah was confident and the new Hannah despite being weak and ashamed by her state, was brave enough to show her vulnerability to the world.
In my comma, I don’t think anyone in my hospital room would have imagined this day would be possible, but with the power of the Almighty I did a 1000 steps for Gaza raising £25,000 so far.
I am proud and content and I know Allah is with me, this is hope, the sun will shine on Palestine, it is a matter of time.
Thank you to everyone for their tremendous support. I am overwhelmed and humbled to see humanity come together of all faiths and backgrounds.
With much love
Hannah Mcwann
The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “Verily, Allah does not look at your appearance or wealth, but rather He looks at your hearts and actions.”
This was my inspiration to put myself out there
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